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(*Waves* Hi guys, remember who I am? I'm not dead yet! )

Sooooo, I was happily chatting away with some friends in class yesterday when my friend/ flatmate called me and saidddd...

"Guess what, Glot is here!!!"

And I was soooooo surprised I went a bit too excited and acted like a freak :D. But yea, 5 months of wait and I almost forgot about it already, then she just "Pop"~ out of the blue with the mail man knocking the door :P.
I didn't know Soom sent me an email about shipping her out because it fricken went to my Junk section, but that's a good thing, surprises like this are awesome.


I rushed home, took a long while to assemble her hooves in (didn't have the tools to pull her elastics). Did her face up. Took a few fast snaps before going out. I took quite a long break from BJDs, no Deviant Art, no Den of Angels, at all, and it's been a few months, so I have to admit that I felt kinda weird finally taking pics of a doll again (and even, looking at one)... *sigh

Here's the little baby. I have not named her yet though. Gonna brush her hooves and horns soon and do a proper shots. Hopefully I can figure out what to name her by then.

( Little Baby. )

Hi guys,

Been a while since I last posted something. I've been really very superbly busy these few months and thus I havent been doing any BJD- related stuffs beside face up commissions T_T. This is really saddd.

Anyway this is a quick post to ask for help if any of you can help me purchase something from ebay!!! My PayPal account couldn't be verified and it's apparently reached the sending limit. The item I need to purchase is worth 850 USD. I'd really appreciate if someone could help me make the payment ASAP. After I paid you first of course (gotta be someone locally in Singapore for sure!)
If you have any amount in your PayPal account that you aren't using or want to withdraw, or simply be so kind to help me (I'll transfer the money to your bank account), do help me out with this >_</
It's not a BJD-related item though, just something I've been looking for for a long while. It's really saddening how I tried to purchase it last night just to realize that my PayPal account reached its limit T_T.

Life can be unfair sometimes.

You find yourself one day full of hope and energy. The next lost and messed up.

Right now I feel like I'm standing at the gate of a deep, deep cave, yelling out something feeling so sure that it's going to bounce back, but heard nothing.

All my hope was sucked away, simply.

Usually, the higher the expectation, the deeper the wound.

I'm not the type to lose hope, I get mad when things go off track and that helps me keep on fighting.
But sometimes it's just too much. Right now I feel so down, stressed, tired and FRUSTRATED.

Anger and sadness when mixed together result in the most painful tears. And it's the first time in a long, long while that I've cried like this.

For some reason, I know that I'd cry today when I get home, so I tried wandering around here and there, eating out, walking slowly, lengthening the time before I get back home.

And somehow I knew that my parents will be the ones to turn on the switch that releases all the madness, all the mess in me. I fucking started crying right after talking to them.

 

They 'helped' me add the last drop of water into the glass already about to pour out.
But the water that was already in the glass came from somewhere else.

...

Life's so unfair. Right now.

And my eyes fucking hurt.

My head fucking hurts.

 

My heart fucking hurts.

(And no this has nothing to do with love or whichever stupid things people might usually emo about).

Woah, I'm alive?!!! 

I really don't know what's been happening to me these days but one thing I'm sure of is that I've totally lost my habit of journaling and blogging, which resulted in a gap of months between this and me last post. Uhm. I wonder if it's good or bad being totally sucked into real life. Or might I actually say, I was addicted to facebook and stay there instead =w=''? (Common the Games are addicting sometimes hahaha)

School is over! 
but INTERNSHIP starts tomorrow. Which means no holiday at all (well ok I did have 2 weeks off from school in between, but thats so not enough :D). Went out a lot with friends during the past weeks and it was pretty damn fine. Not to mention I'm kinda broke right now so working is good, staying all day at the office secures a fact that I'm not going to be able to SPEND.

Or not. Let's see how the first week go.
The thing is that I'm pretty damn happy about where I'm going to work at. It's DDB for god's sake! I totally can't believe it. After being forgotten by the lady at the office who's supposed to be sending my resume out to companies but FORGOT that she had mine. I finally got calls. Which resulted in a few complication after that for I accepted a job at a local event company (which does not really involves much Advertising stuffs which is my major and priority), but have to dump them last min (on the day I'm supposed to start work) because I was able to get in DDB! 

Apparently it's difficult like hell to become DDB's intern, if wasn't for the lady at Johnson&Johnson who recommended me there since I'm working on packaging design projects for her (Clean&Clear products hahahha) I wouldn't stand a chance getting through their long waitlist of interns. I'm pretty worried, though, but let's do my best ya :)! I'm really excited to learn things from them, and my mentor/supervisor is going to be awesome, he's damn cool! 

The only thing is that I have difficulties in waking up early! Now I need to wake up everyday at 7:30 or so! GOD, save me.

So apparently I'll be working for 2 companies at once. Johnson & Johnson and DDB. Which is awesome :D.

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Anyhow, I'm really paranoiding because my removable Hard Disk broke down!!! Lots of my works are in there. Since the recent assessment was pretty much of a rush, I didn't have time to back up the files on my laptop and just worked and saved the files directly onto the hard disk. I've scared this would happen. And so IT DID. It's just slightly better that assessment is already over.

But is stopped me from submiting my works for Crowbar!! :<

I've been trying my best to get the files of my book out from it but no luck. Finally I brought it to the shop to ask for data recovery, hope it turn out well T_T. Lucky I still have my Advertising files on the laptop. Prrrr. 

But then I somehow am glad. This means that I might have a reason for no submitting the works and won't feel bad about it >D. Really I'm broke and 27$ per work is killing my wallet. NAFA sure is stingy, if they picked the student's works then they should be paying for them too! What's the point of picking the works and tell them to submit while not giving them any support? >_>.

3 works means 81$ for god's sake. And I think I'm gonna submit just 2 (that is, if I can get the book out of the hard drive =.=)

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Doll wise. I've been taking the longest break ever. I don't even touch or look at them and it's been months. It's just that I've been busy with this and that, and all those blah blah blah kinda sucked the interests away from me. And when my mind stops thinking about dolls it means no new concept for photoshoot will be built up, my mind's all closed and shut towards doll stuffs recently.

Which, I don't know is good or bad. I'm tempted to see a head or two away but so scared that I will regret it later. But I have things I like better now that I want to spend on. :< ~ Sigh.

Well, just focus on working first! GO ME! It's going to be a valuable summer :D.

(Yes I'm sad that I won't be able to go home at all this summer and have to stay here until dont-know-when.)

Seriously, like.

What's wrong with SOOM? It's like they know just whatever their customers want and can never resist T_T.

I fell in love. I never thought I'd really buy any of their MDs. But look at what happened.
So *beep*ing cute I couldn't resist.

I'm in a financially tight situation since I wanted to save up for something else. I've never really tightened my wallet this much before. But. BUT.
... I have my reasons ok? ;3;. I've been wanting a tiny all this while and non seemed to make me want to bring home THIS desperately yet.

But Soom made me did it T_T.

I ordered one.

*dies*.

Dear bank account + wallet goddess, I'm sorry.

*back to projects*

[ I HEREBY DECLARE THAT I WOULD NOT BUY ANYTHING ELSE FOR LONGER THAN 3 MONTHS / I'LL TRY ] T_T.

Gotta earn, and sell.

Come to talk about it, I'm having some wigs for sale here :
http://www.denofangels.com/forums/showthread.php?t=280590

They are both long wigs, one blond ( Volks ) and the other black ( unbranded ) :D. SD sized. Do take a look if you happen to be looking for one.

My Juri A is still for sale, too :D